Life in flux, feeling stuck
while drifting, not choosing
No finish line,
no one watching
Quiet rooms
from childhood
Left to my own devices
Learned stability in collapse
I learned how to survive
before turning fifteen
Grief arrive early
and stayed for air
Gut full of microbes
Thirty trillion
Resembling a universe
Is my body one?
…..
Life is large
And the world feels small
Desire outpaces meaning
It’s a free for all
The earth rotates in a quiet rage…
and I’ve confused motion with momentum.
I stretch, but remain still
I move, but nothing changes.
